terrible

yesterday i watched some tv program on channel 8. it was about old people who live alone and how they spend their chinese new year.

basically i decided that being old and alone sucks very badly. and that is something i fear will befall me in the future. which is really terrible.

since i am planning to have 1 child at the most, he/she could easily decide not to bother with me when i get old. and my wife could die before me.

and all that only if i actually get married.

so you see, my future is bad. terrible.