you know i love euu

and so i found out that some people actually had to change classes this semester, therefore it is in utmost regret that i extend this apology to that SOMEONE who i thought told me something untrue.

i am sorry, SOMEONE.


anyway i was reading 8 days yesterday and they did interviews with some actresses about their love lives and shit.

i realised that most of them are very calculative and mechanical in their choices of partners and such related stuff. it's as though love has turned into an exercise rather than an activity.

there is a difference bet-ween the two.

normal people have sex because they enjoy it, and it is an activity. if some idiot says he fucks to make babies, then there is something wrong with him because he doesn't like doing it per se, but rather for the related effects. and thus it becomes an exercise.

and so it seems that adults feel that love is an exercise where everything must be calculated to perfection rather than to simply allow it to develop. somehow this seems to make it less fun.

"oh i can't go out with him because he drinks too much/ is not rich enough/ is not serious enough/ doesn't have a big dick, etc."

they like someone for his attributes rather than him as a person, like selecting a character in a computer game.

they want to find that guy to marry and make babies, rather than just to have fun and enjoy life together. it's weird, i think.

maybe i'm just too innocent and i'll grow up to be like that too...


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