such a tragedy

everytime i read my notes, line after line, i think "i already know this shit."

it's like reading a book for the second time, you know what's gonna happen, and you get bored.

so i get bored and my mind wanders around for a few moments before i grab it in a chokehold and force it back to the present subject.

the sad thing is that i have no problems recollecting the vast amounts of garbage i read daily, blogs, websites, football news, wikipedia, sex stories.

but when it comes to the serious stuff, my mind prefers to take a little nap after all its exertions in processing the abovementioned garbage.

i really should work harder than what i'm currently doing.

fuck me.