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a short story: i'm too responsible for my own good

i'm really quite a responsible person, even if you may find it quite hard to believe.

when i'm working, i feel responsible for the customers' well being, and because of this, i get very stressed when long queues form.

there are 2 choices, the first is to take my time and let them wait. after all, i don't stand to lose anything. the second is to rush so that the customers don't have to wait as long.

i choose the second one, and this causes some bit of trauma for me, especially since customers are quite stupid. they love coming in 5 minutes before a movie starts and then form long long lines to buy their tickets.

and because the movie starts in 5 minutes, i feel responsible that they customers do get their tickets before the movie starts. so then i start rushing and give myself unnecessary stress.

sometimes i look at the fellow sitting beside me, and i admire at how calm he is. then i realise that it's because he really doesn't give a shit about the customers. he chose the first choice, to take his time, since it's really not his problem.

i wonder if i should give in and just care about myself more.