i'm lying just to keep you here

i thought that shaving my head would bring about some drastic changes, maybe for the better.

but it's still me, and i'm still fucked.

changes on the surface will never affect what goes on inside.

what i like to call rationality is actually cowardice in disguise, and it's a very very lousy disguise.

maybe i just have to wait, after all changes do not happen overnight.