the doubt that kills

sometimes i feel like i'm invincible, like i can do anything. so i go ahead and do these things, but i always think 'what if?'

what if i fail?

this 'what if?' immediately destroys all my invincibility. i feel weak, i feel vulnerable. i feel scared, scared of failure. i feel useless.

hesitation is good. it keeps you safe from all the stupid effects of rash decisions.

hesitation is bad. it makes you sterile, it makes you boring. when you die, your tombstone would say "He Lived A Safe Life." i don't want that on mine.

i should continue thinking 'what if?'

what if i succeed?