sad/bored

this morning i had a dream again, there was a big sale and i was buying jeans. dreaming of such things is really a waste of my sleeping time.

i think the recent spate of dreams are my mind's way of giving me something to think about, because i've been feeling rather empty and bored these days after being sad for fuck-knows how long.

when i was sad, at least i was feeling something. now that i'm not sad, i've got nothing to feel and i just get bored. i get so bored that my mind has to dream up nonsensical stuff to keep me occupied.

it's just a big void that needs to be filled.