the end is a long way away

now that this place is getting more and more popular, i think i'm supposed to be happy. after all, blogs are meant to be read, aren't they? but i think having more friend-readers means that there are more restrictions to the things i can say here. especially if they're classmates, since we're supposed to be LOVING so i can't write about their dirty secrets and such.

that's why i like to read people's blogs without telling them. i think that a more honest opinion would be projected if they do not know of my existance. or maybe it's just that i have severe stalker tendencies.

and also my dear classmates asked why don't i speak like the way i write in here. WHY? because i think the things in here are the 'unspeakables' which i find to be too inane or too sick to be expressed in person. and also if i speak like i write, people would think that i'm retarded for a large variety of reasons.