burden

"take only what you need, my love, and leave the rest behind
don’t be afraid of where we’ll go, my love
i promise you will be fine
now you are the only one that's mine"
tereza and tomas - bright eyes

so i've been reading the unbearable lightness of being, and in it, it says that there is 'lightess and heaviness', and that it is unknown as to which is positive or negative due to the fucked up nature of humans.

heaviness is characterised by being tied up to many issues in life, and that it makes you feel very 'heavy' with burden.

lightness is the opposite of this, being free of all burden, and therefore 'light'.

the problem is that neither lightness or heaviness is positive nor negative, and although you'd expect them to be easily differentiated, they are not. i am currently having a severe problem witht his heavy and light issue, and i assure you that it is not fun at all.

we just met a british girl who was arrested in singapore and charged with possession of marijuana, which she confirmed was true, and "they tested my piss and found it in there too."

marijuana brings a 10-year prison sentence, but somehow she managed to have all charges dropped against her. i think she is extremely fortunate, but she seems to be unable to recognise this.

she is currently waiting for university admission in the UK, and i do think that she is going to get into a whole lot of trouble there. good luck to her, because she didn't learn her lesson here and is going to have much trouble elsewhere. i hope she is going to be alright.