why this?

"lips are turning blue, a kiss that can't renew
i only dream of you, my beautiful"
sing for absolution - muse

i thought everything was going well, until i went to sleep and had a dream.

normally when i'm dreaming, i will feel a sense of apprehension and i am cautious at accepting what i'm experiencing (in the dream) as reality. but this dream felt so damn real and everything was so damn clear that i believed everything and thought this was it.

midway through my dream, i thought how lucky i was, and that just a few hours ago i was sleeping at home.

then i woke up and OH SHIT I AM SLEEPING AT HOME.

oh dreams, how much i hate them.