missing

i've been trying to think of the things i want (or try) to accomplish before i go away and i realised that there's really not much i want to do and also not much i can do in this short time.

instead i've been thinking more about the things i should do in 2 years' time, like further education (no school wants me), which bike to buy (my parents would disown me), and which girl to marry (no girl wants me).

well based on the way i'm making my plans, it's almost as though the next 2 years doesn't even exist.