time to fight
throughout my life i've been rather non-confrontational in nature, kinda like a peace-loving hippie of sorts. especially when dealing with strangers, i tend to believe that their behaviour is due to their strange personalities instead of because they're just bloody cunts.
like there was once i was at borders browsing through the magazine section. i was standing there and a fatty came and squeezed past me. due to his above-average fattiness, his whole body brushed against me but instead of apologising, he went "TSK!"
i found this to be very strange, since i was the one who was supposed to be offended. at first i thought he was TSK-ing at something else, until i realised that it was directed at me. i guess if i were less of a hippie, i would have asked him politely just WHAT THE FUCK was his problem.
a few years back i was skating on a pavement, on the right side where there's no drain covers because the wheels will get caught in the drain covers and i'll fall and crack my head. anyway, i saw a man walking towards me from quite a distance, also on the non-drain side of the pavement.
he was quite far away so i just continued travelling forward, since i couldn't move to the side even if i wanted to (because i'll fall and crack my skull). even as i was getting quite close to him, he still showed no signs of giving way. i was looking down so i didn't realise how close i was until i saw his feet in front of me.
i stopped abruptly and only just avoided knocking into him. when i looked up, i was literally face to face with him. i noticed he had a fucking guai lan face and i knew he was just trying to cause trouble, but i thought since he was the pedestrian and i was on wheels, i should have given way to him. so i said "sorry," and he just stared at me.
i walked past him and immediately felt stupid and ashamed of myself for giving in to him, instead of giving him the trouble that he was asking for. such incidents have also occurred during soccer and various other situations, but i was always the one to back down and apologise although i was not at fault.
i have recently decided (for no apparent reason) that i will not give in again in the future if it's not my fault. if anyone wants trouble then i will give them trouble. i'll fight if it comes down to that. maybe i'll get beaten up, or maybe i'll beat someone up, it doesn't matter. at the very least i'll have something interesting to write about here.
like there was once i was at borders browsing through the magazine section. i was standing there and a fatty came and squeezed past me. due to his above-average fattiness, his whole body brushed against me but instead of apologising, he went "TSK!"
i found this to be very strange, since i was the one who was supposed to be offended. at first i thought he was TSK-ing at something else, until i realised that it was directed at me. i guess if i were less of a hippie, i would have asked him politely just WHAT THE FUCK was his problem.
a few years back i was skating on a pavement, on the right side where there's no drain covers because the wheels will get caught in the drain covers and i'll fall and crack my head. anyway, i saw a man walking towards me from quite a distance, also on the non-drain side of the pavement.
he was quite far away so i just continued travelling forward, since i couldn't move to the side even if i wanted to (because i'll fall and crack my skull). even as i was getting quite close to him, he still showed no signs of giving way. i was looking down so i didn't realise how close i was until i saw his feet in front of me.
i stopped abruptly and only just avoided knocking into him. when i looked up, i was literally face to face with him. i noticed he had a fucking guai lan face and i knew he was just trying to cause trouble, but i thought since he was the pedestrian and i was on wheels, i should have given way to him. so i said "sorry," and he just stared at me.
i walked past him and immediately felt stupid and ashamed of myself for giving in to him, instead of giving him the trouble that he was asking for. such incidents have also occurred during soccer and various other situations, but i was always the one to back down and apologise although i was not at fault.
i have recently decided (for no apparent reason) that i will not give in again in the future if it's not my fault. if anyone wants trouble then i will give them trouble. i'll fight if it comes down to that. maybe i'll get beaten up, or maybe i'll beat someone up, it doesn't matter. at the very least i'll have something interesting to write about here.
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thats becoming a man.
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Anonymous, at June 26, 2008 12:06 pm
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