what's wrong with me

yesterday i was buying fishball noodles because i'm getting old and am unable to eat hard food.

while i was waiting in line, i was practicing saying 'yu yuan mian' [鱼圆面] in my mind, and even then, found it to be very difficult. it always sounded like 'yee yian mian.'

i thought i was done practicing and was confident of getting it right. when my turn came,. i blurted out something that was so garbled that i don't even remember what it sounded like, but it was definitely nothing close to being chinese.

the guy gave me a "??? wtf" look and i had to compose myself before trying again, and i only managed to say 'yee yian mian.'