just live and breathe

now finally my maid has confirmed that she'll be leaving for the land of bull-fighting and galacticos in early november. my mother has also found a replacement so i hope everything will be good.

my head spins when i try to think of may, MAY 2009, when i will finally pass out and have some sort of life again. my head spins because it seems so bloody far away that i fail to create a mental image of it. it seems like an impossible, invisible, unattainable goal, like i'll die before it happens.

now my head is spinning again.