why

"you'll be doing all right, with your christmas of white
but i'll have a blue, blue christmas"
blue christmas - bright eyes

2 days to christmas and i still don't feel any festive joy at all. this is terrible. if not for the holiday i wouldn't even care. when i'm out in the city and see all the decorations up, i think why are they there? it doesn't even feel like christmas this year.

i think it's got something to do with the weather. it's bloody december now and everyday the sun is blazing down. the earth is messed up because of us and this is its revenge.

merry christmas, hope we all live to see a few more.

(no, it's not just because of the weather. it's because i'm stuck in here too much but you already knew that.)