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on christmas eve we went to mustafa centre, which i think is the most awesome place to go in the middle of the night when you have nothing better to do. mustafa is a heaven for cheap goods and i ended up with a stack of vcds and also this album by dashboard confessional.

the songs in it are mostly very emotional (as is expected of them), and after going through some wiki, i found out that the album was released in 2003 when their singer chris carrabba was 28.

this made me wonder: how is it possible for him to still feel this much at such an age? don't people get numb after time? i'm only 21 and i already feel tired, i don't know how he can continue being so emotional and still be alive.

it's like after each failure, your skin grows thicker. it's good, because it protects you from future harm, but it also numbs you from enjoyment. give and take, i suppose.

i believe that we can only have one true love, because to love, you'll have to give everything and when it's over you'll have nothing left. you might fall in love again (or whatever you call it), but it will never feel as good because your skin is thicker.

i think that relationships operate on a depreciating scale. the more you've had, the less it's worth. firstly because you've been numbed, secondly (and sadly) because no one will believe in your love anymore.