non-existance

i used to wonder why some people choose to commit suicide in such painful ways, like drowning or jumping off buildings etc. it's gotta hurt, right? and there are better ways to go about killing yourself. aren't they afraid of the pain?

and then one day i realised, it doesn't matter if you feel pain because that's the last thing you'll ever feel anyway. it simply is of no concern anymore. it's like... smashing your car before sending it to the scrapyard or having your old computer crash when you've bought a new one.

shitty analogies but i can't wrangle my mind around this at 5 in the morning.