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my mind has been feeling rather empty lately. it's strange and i can't really grasp what's going on in there. there's a lot of things floating around, but they're so wispy, so alien, like nothing i've seen before.

the stuff that occupies my headspace goes through phases. there's always a dominant thought or subject or category to all the random madness, something that i can understand and analyse with ease.

now the category is -blank- i'm always thinking and trying to figure out why there's nothing in my head. nothing? hello? i once said here that i'd rather be feeling sad than to feel nothing. through the years i've given up feeling sad.

and this? is nothing.