surrender
it was in the early months of 2010 and my mood was at the lowest it had been in years. things weren't right, both in my head and the stuff that was going on around me.
it came to a point where i didn't want to sink any further because then it'll be hell trying to get out of the hole. so one night i came to the conclusion that the best thing i could do was to surrender.
i surrendered and everything felt alright. i didn't have any expectations, didn't harbour any hopes, i didn't struggle against the tide. i emptied myself of all emotions and just allowed things to be as they were and it was fine.
not that things weren't just as bad as they had been, it was just that i didn't feel it anymore and that's all that matters. i guess that was the closest i've come to attaining nirvana.
it came to a point where i didn't want to sink any further because then it'll be hell trying to get out of the hole. so one night i came to the conclusion that the best thing i could do was to surrender.
i surrendered and everything felt alright. i didn't have any expectations, didn't harbour any hopes, i didn't struggle against the tide. i emptied myself of all emotions and just allowed things to be as they were and it was fine.
not that things weren't just as bad as they had been, it was just that i didn't feel it anymore and that's all that matters. i guess that was the closest i've come to attaining nirvana.
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