disintegration

i've known of this song for years now but never paid it much attention. i just labeled it as one of the cure's weirder offerings, not suited to my ears.

a few months back i watched this live version and it was amazing. i wondered why i've never seen its greatness before. how did i ever miss such an amazing song?

i continued listening to this live version for a long time before i finally dug out the original to put in my mp3 player. the first time it played, i missed it completely.

the next time, i made myself pay attention. wait a minute, why does it sound like something is missing? i went home and listened to the live version again. still amazing.

what was present in the live version though, is the sound of utter desperation in his voice, especially later in the song where things really heat up.

"screaming me over and over and over!" he sings it like he really means it. interesting how he manages to make the song better, over 20 years since he first sang it.