so where do we go
people often ask me if i feel bored just doing "nothing" for so long.
i don't feel bored because in my freedom, each day is unpredictable and has the potential for interesting things to occur, the potential to be special. it is because i have nothing to do that allows me to do ANYTHING i want. if i was so inclined, i could wake up with "nothing" to do and finish the day in another continent.
on the other hand, if i were to be working, i would be occupied everyday but each day i already know what is going to happen. wake up, go to work... repeat. the only bit of excitement could only possibly occur in the short timeframe between ending work and going to bed. there is no element of spontaneity, nothing to look forward to. that would truly be boring.
it's kind of how i felt back in ns. yes, the days were packed with activities, but none of them were particularly interesting or worth looking forward to. each morning when i woke up i already knew with perfect certainty that absolutely nothing would happen that day, and that was a really terrible thing to wake up to.
i need that feeling of unpredictability in my life. without it, it is easy for the weeks and months to meld into one big dull mess and before you know it, it's the end of days.
i don't feel bored because in my freedom, each day is unpredictable and has the potential for interesting things to occur, the potential to be special. it is because i have nothing to do that allows me to do ANYTHING i want. if i was so inclined, i could wake up with "nothing" to do and finish the day in another continent.
on the other hand, if i were to be working, i would be occupied everyday but each day i already know what is going to happen. wake up, go to work... repeat. the only bit of excitement could only possibly occur in the short timeframe between ending work and going to bed. there is no element of spontaneity, nothing to look forward to. that would truly be boring.
it's kind of how i felt back in ns. yes, the days were packed with activities, but none of them were particularly interesting or worth looking forward to. each morning when i woke up i already knew with perfect certainty that absolutely nothing would happen that day, and that was a really terrible thing to wake up to.
i need that feeling of unpredictability in my life. without it, it is easy for the weeks and months to meld into one big dull mess and before you know it, it's the end of days.
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