the end has no end
throughout all my previous endeavours in life, there was always an end-point to look forward to and to work towards.
in school, there were exams and holidays and graduation, in temp jobs there was the end date and the start of school, in NS there was POP and ORD. all of these were solid, tangible points.
a few days after i started work, i felt a sense of loss and confusion which i initially didn't manage to put my finger to. some time later, i figured out that this was caused by the seemingly endless timeline of work.
where is the ending to look towards?
some might say they look forward to their next pay raise or promotion or change of jobs, but these targets are blurry at best. it could come this year or the next or never.
i don't know how to live this way.
in school, there were exams and holidays and graduation, in temp jobs there was the end date and the start of school, in NS there was POP and ORD. all of these were solid, tangible points.
a few days after i started work, i felt a sense of loss and confusion which i initially didn't manage to put my finger to. some time later, i figured out that this was caused by the seemingly endless timeline of work.
where is the ending to look towards?
some might say they look forward to their next pay raise or promotion or change of jobs, but these targets are blurry at best. it could come this year or the next or never.
i don't know how to live this way.
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