the final unwinding

later today i will be heading down to watch anberlin live for the fourth and final time because they're finally calling it quits after 12 years together.

i've been a fan of theirs since 2007, when i agreed with my friends to attend their first live show here despite never listening to them before.

back then i had just entered my final year in poly and was starting to get a little more 'adventurous' because fuck it, i may never get the chance to do such things again.

(this 'spirit of adventure' would later lead me into situations that i would normally have the good sense to avoid)

and so it turned out that their songs are fantastic and their live performances are amazing. it also helps that you can tell they're genuinely good guys, always happy to make music and perform for their fans.

since that fateful day, their songs (and especially this one) have been following me through the ups and downs in life, always managing to find a spot to nestle itself in, be it in a simple playlist or a mixtape for a lover. it has been the soundtrack of so many glorious and so many disastrous moments.

i really wonder how i'll feel when i hear this opening guitar tune come on for the last time.