woody

i saw this last week and i realised that i've never known the meaning of empathy. i've seen the word but i've never figured out what it really means.

then after some thought, i realised i've never felt empathy before in my life. in fact, i'm almost like a block of wood when it comes to the above 3 things (are they emotions?).

i tried to rationalise, i tried to explain why, but i couldn't. it just is.

some time back i read an article about a woman who had an accident to her brain and after that she became an artistic genius. however, she lost the ability to comprehend or have any emotions.

i wondered how was that possible, and how would it feel like to not feel anything?

now i understand, it's not about not feeling anything, but rather there is simply a void in that space.

sympathy - after reading the description i can recall 3 incidents in my life where i have felt this, and each time it was absolutely brutal, so much so that i would rather have a void there as well.

compassion - don't remember, possibly never.

i am a block of wood.