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i sold my vespa about 3 weeks back. admittedly, it wasn't as though i really loved it, but to see it being ridden off by someone else, knowing it's gone... it looked beautiful - something i've never noticed in the last years, because as always, we're fucked up only treasure what we had when it's gone.

7 years is a long time to get attached to something and there has been a fair bit of memories and stories associated with that bike. loves that came and are now gone, friendships made and lost, all the near-misses that felt like i should have been dead...

it has also become a little part of my identity. friends would recognise it on the road, people knew i rode that little scooter. they would talk to me about it, ask how old was it, how fast could it go, why i chose to ride such a stupid old-man vehicle...

now more than 3 weeks on, i still haven't figured out if it was a good thing to let it go. after all, i've owned that vespa for a quarter of my life. do i feel better not having unneeded memories bogging my down? do i feel a sense of loss that a major artifact from a large part of my life is now gone?