really?

anxiety is the killer, i once said. it was strange to note that this past exams i felt almost zero anxiety. i was already preparing myself for the inevitable bad dreams since the beginning of the year, but they never came.

i thought it was still too early for me to feel anything, but even down to the last month and final days, there was nothing. sure, i dreamt of ghosts and running away from the police and bad guys etc but nothing that portrayed my anxiety.

it's not as though i have been really well-prepared for this exams, so i figured it must be because i've spent too long waiting for it to the point where i didn't really give a fuggg anymore.