you're real now

if you've been around here for some time you'd know how often i fall for girls, and always over the stupidest and most random things. back then it was much worse and sometimes even i find it ridiculous.

in my later years i've toned down a lot, not that these girls fail to attract me anymore but rather i've grown to allow these feelings to pass without affecting me much, because quite frankly it is pointless to feel so much over nothing.

the feelings were easy to dismiss because they were borne out of nothing. things were going fine, and then this happened.

now that i've started to accept this, things start to get a little more complicated. the feelings linger around way past their welcome date and are much harder to laugh off or rationalise because all of a sudden, everything is real.