fin.
THIS YEAR WILL BE BETTER THAN THE LAST
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
lost in the world
as always, we'll end the year with a summary of the first paragraphs of the first posts of each month.
jan
happy new year it's now time for me to find some employment. yesterday i was speaking to a friend and it seems that he has already accepted the idea that all jobs are boring and sucky, and that one day he will work in a boring and sucky job.
feb
i have to go all the way back to late 2004/early 2005 for the last time when i had such a big crush on a complete stranger.
mar
you move through the room like breathing was easy
if someone believed me
they would be as in love with you as i am
apr
i've always liked and been interested in rock climbing and i would have joined it as a CCA during my poly days had it been available.
may
recently i've been watching some wrestling (WWF) on youtube and it reminded me of the good days from year 2000-2002 where WWF was in its heyday amongst my friends.
jun
a few nights ago i looked out of my window and for the first time in forever, there were a good number of stars in the sky. i'm not a big fan of stars because they freak me out, but i used to look up at them quite often when i was younger.
jul
last weekend 5 of us drove up to KL to spend the weekend. it was quite a hellacious ride up, because my friend was driving at 140kmph on a 2 lane 'highway' and especially after watching one too many car crash videos.
aug
it was during the time when the haze was at its worst, and i was at jurong east trying to get from the mrt station to the safety of the aircon at the shopping centres. face masks were out of stock everywhere (what's the point of the govt stockpiling millions of masks when they're nowhere to be seen when we need them?) so i just had to brave it and breathe as little as possible.
sep
i've been feeling rather riled up lately regarding the state of the team i support. it has been in a state of decline for the past 3-4 years now with little improvements being made. sure, they won the league, but anyone can see that this team is nowhere near what it once was.
oct
during my ns days we had to take all sorts of bullshit from all sorts of bullshit people, mostly because of their rank. i probably haven't had it as badly as some of the other poor souls, but there are still some incidents that stay with me till this day, and still piss me off whenever i think of them.
nov
it seems that everyone around my age and who are in a relationship are already looking to settle down, which leaves me a little awestruck by their optimism and forward-planning-ability.
dec
last month i went back to my secondary school because they were closing the campus for renovations/rebuilding, and there was some final-day celebrations going on.
jan
happy new year it's now time for me to find some employment. yesterday i was speaking to a friend and it seems that he has already accepted the idea that all jobs are boring and sucky, and that one day he will work in a boring and sucky job.
feb
i have to go all the way back to late 2004/early 2005 for the last time when i had such a big crush on a complete stranger.
mar
you move through the room like breathing was easy
if someone believed me
they would be as in love with you as i am
apr
i've always liked and been interested in rock climbing and i would have joined it as a CCA during my poly days had it been available.
may
recently i've been watching some wrestling (WWF) on youtube and it reminded me of the good days from year 2000-2002 where WWF was in its heyday amongst my friends.
jun
a few nights ago i looked out of my window and for the first time in forever, there were a good number of stars in the sky. i'm not a big fan of stars because they freak me out, but i used to look up at them quite often when i was younger.
jul
last weekend 5 of us drove up to KL to spend the weekend. it was quite a hellacious ride up, because my friend was driving at 140kmph on a 2 lane 'highway' and especially after watching one too many car crash videos.
aug
it was during the time when the haze was at its worst, and i was at jurong east trying to get from the mrt station to the safety of the aircon at the shopping centres. face masks were out of stock everywhere (what's the point of the govt stockpiling millions of masks when they're nowhere to be seen when we need them?) so i just had to brave it and breathe as little as possible.
sep
i've been feeling rather riled up lately regarding the state of the team i support. it has been in a state of decline for the past 3-4 years now with little improvements being made. sure, they won the league, but anyone can see that this team is nowhere near what it once was.
oct
during my ns days we had to take all sorts of bullshit from all sorts of bullshit people, mostly because of their rank. i probably haven't had it as badly as some of the other poor souls, but there are still some incidents that stay with me till this day, and still piss me off whenever i think of them.
nov
it seems that everyone around my age and who are in a relationship are already looking to settle down, which leaves me a little awestruck by their optimism and forward-planning-ability.
dec
last month i went back to my secondary school because they were closing the campus for renovations/rebuilding, and there was some final-day celebrations going on.
Sunday, December 29, 2013
5 significant songs, 2013
in chronological order
the xx - fiction
this carried over from the end of last year, and i spent the early parts of this year listening extensively to coexist. as always, my attention shifted from song to song as they each took turns to capture my ear, be it by a catchy hook or a particularly interesting lyric.
it eventually settled on this song with amazing bits of both elements. listening to it now brings me back to all those rainy bus rides spent with this plugged into my ear.
"come real love, why do i refuse you
cos if my fear's right, i risk to lose you..."
coheed & cambria - welcome home
in preparation for their live show in april, i started listening to a bit of their newer songs to get myself up to date, as well as refreshed my memories with their old songs.
this song is one of those that went unnoticed until i listened to the live version. when i first saw it on youtube, i thought it was a new song because there was no way i could have missed such awesomeness, but some research showed that it was released in 2005 and i must have had heard it since 2008 or so.
interpol - leif erikson
at the peak of my obsession with this song, i must have played it 50 times a day and still couldn't get enough.
"this song is the deep, dark, secret heart of 'turn on the bright lights', the sound of your past and future loves whispering through thick black bass notes spewing like oil."
- comment on songmeanings
a lot of people there say this song is about sex, but i think it is about two people who learn to love each other and appreciate each other's unconventional way of expressing their love.
poison oak - bright eyes
one day i came across this video and BOOM it shattered my life. there was some inexplicable beauty in this stupid thing that was probably created as one of those nonsensical joke videos that were so popular around the time it was uploaded in 2006.
maybe it's because the childish video matches the song's perspective where he's singing about his experiences as an innocent boy rather than a world-weary man, in a time where life was simpler and he only saw things as they were and not the meanings hidden behind them.
jay chou - 七里香
when i entered poly, the group of friends i hung out with used to go sing karaoke and out of necessity i had to learn a few songs, which just so happened to be all jay chou songs. till this day, his are the only modern chinese songs i listen to.
i haven't been listening to his songs for ages until october when i went to batam and heard a shop playing one. when i got back, this was the first video i clicked in my youtube search and holy shit it was awesome.
this song kickstarted a month of jay chou, where i would listen to his songs in the wee hours of the morning and it felt like such a good fit, his chill songs in the quiet nights.
the xx - fiction
this carried over from the end of last year, and i spent the early parts of this year listening extensively to coexist. as always, my attention shifted from song to song as they each took turns to capture my ear, be it by a catchy hook or a particularly interesting lyric.
it eventually settled on this song with amazing bits of both elements. listening to it now brings me back to all those rainy bus rides spent with this plugged into my ear.
"come real love, why do i refuse you
cos if my fear's right, i risk to lose you..."
coheed & cambria - welcome home
in preparation for their live show in april, i started listening to a bit of their newer songs to get myself up to date, as well as refreshed my memories with their old songs.
this song is one of those that went unnoticed until i listened to the live version. when i first saw it on youtube, i thought it was a new song because there was no way i could have missed such awesomeness, but some research showed that it was released in 2005 and i must have had heard it since 2008 or so.
interpol - leif erikson
at the peak of my obsession with this song, i must have played it 50 times a day and still couldn't get enough.
"this song is the deep, dark, secret heart of 'turn on the bright lights', the sound of your past and future loves whispering through thick black bass notes spewing like oil."
- comment on songmeanings
a lot of people there say this song is about sex, but i think it is about two people who learn to love each other and appreciate each other's unconventional way of expressing their love.
poison oak - bright eyes
one day i came across this video and BOOM it shattered my life. there was some inexplicable beauty in this stupid thing that was probably created as one of those nonsensical joke videos that were so popular around the time it was uploaded in 2006.
maybe it's because the childish video matches the song's perspective where he's singing about his experiences as an innocent boy rather than a world-weary man, in a time where life was simpler and he only saw things as they were and not the meanings hidden behind them.
jay chou - 七里香
when i entered poly, the group of friends i hung out with used to go sing karaoke and out of necessity i had to learn a few songs, which just so happened to be all jay chou songs. till this day, his are the only modern chinese songs i listen to.
i haven't been listening to his songs for ages until october when i went to batam and heard a shop playing one. when i got back, this was the first video i clicked in my youtube search and holy shit it was awesome.
this song kickstarted a month of jay chou, where i would listen to his songs in the wee hours of the morning and it felt like such a good fit, his chill songs in the quiet nights.
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
celebrity crush IV
aside from all that i've written here about the randoms girls whom i've fallen in love with, according to historical records, the girls whom i've really liked were the ones who looked the happiest when they saw me.
i can see it in their smile and in their eyes.
some say that opposites attract, so perhaps i fall for their smiles because i can't smile for shit.
and this brings me to this girl:
there're a million girls on tumblr, but this lovely barbara has always gotten my attention. at first i didn't know why, but now i do.
it is her smile.
i can see it in their smile and in their eyes.
some say that opposites attract, so perhaps i fall for their smiles because i can't smile for shit.
and this brings me to this girl:
there're a million girls on tumblr, but this lovely barbara has always gotten my attention. at first i didn't know why, but now i do.
it is her smile.
Thursday, December 12, 2013
tough choice
last month i went back to my secondary school because they were closing the campus for renovations/rebuilding, and there was some final-day celebrations going on.
it was the first time i've been there since the year after i graduated, and the place doesn't hold that much special significance to me but i figured what the hell, just go take one last look before everything is gone.
so i went there that night and first thing i found out was that the celebrations was just a very informal thing held in the canteen, of all places.
second thing i found out was that there was a lot of girls in the school now.
well i knew there were girls in the new integrated program or whatever, but i never ever thought it would be this many girls, and there was something really off about seeing all these girls in a (former) boy's school.
anyway for a while i felt very sorry for my past self, for he had been living without any girls in his life throughout his secondary school period. GIRRRRRLLLLSSSSS...
i soon came to realise that having girls around wasn't without its own downsides.
there was a mini-concert, and when i got there it was a teachers' band playing, with my ex-form-tutor in it. following that was a students' band.
what i quickly noticed though, was that the boys in the audience were all VERY boisterous and enthusiastic, singing and clapping along. when it was over they even started doing the school cheer and stuff like that.
what in the fuck is going on here? am i in the correct school? because i'm sure back then no one would give even a tiny fuck, much less singing and cheering. i liked it that way, we all just minded our own business and didn't have to pretend to care about things.
this must have been a direct result of having girls around, and their small number made it such that the boys had to try extra hard competing to get their attention, hence this bullshit actions that didn't exist before.
it made me think, would i like it if i were there now? on one hand, it felt so annoying, but on the other hand, GIRRRRRLLLLLSSSS...
it was the first time i've been there since the year after i graduated, and the place doesn't hold that much special significance to me but i figured what the hell, just go take one last look before everything is gone.
so i went there that night and first thing i found out was that the celebrations was just a very informal thing held in the canteen, of all places.
second thing i found out was that there was a lot of girls in the school now.
well i knew there were girls in the new integrated program or whatever, but i never ever thought it would be this many girls, and there was something really off about seeing all these girls in a (former) boy's school.
anyway for a while i felt very sorry for my past self, for he had been living without any girls in his life throughout his secondary school period. GIRRRRRLLLLSSSSS...
i soon came to realise that having girls around wasn't without its own downsides.
there was a mini-concert, and when i got there it was a teachers' band playing, with my ex-form-tutor in it. following that was a students' band.
what i quickly noticed though, was that the boys in the audience were all VERY boisterous and enthusiastic, singing and clapping along. when it was over they even started doing the school cheer and stuff like that.
what in the fuck is going on here? am i in the correct school? because i'm sure back then no one would give even a tiny fuck, much less singing and cheering. i liked it that way, we all just minded our own business and didn't have to pretend to care about things.
this must have been a direct result of having girls around, and their small number made it such that the boys had to try extra hard competing to get their attention, hence this bullshit actions that didn't exist before.
it made me think, would i like it if i were there now? on one hand, it felt so annoying, but on the other hand, GIRRRRRLLLLLSSSS...