lalaland

sometimes i ask myself, if i had the choice to live in my dreams, literally live in a perfect dreamworld like in inception, would i do it?

i can't give myself an answer, but i feel that i'm leaning more towards yes since this 'real world' is such a fucked up place to be in anyway.

the argument against this is that it's not real, but damn, dreams are just about as real as it gets. and why does it matter if your experiences are not real to others?

pls just go away

this k-pop thing, to say that i don't get it would be the biggest understatement ever.

the main reason for my dislike is that i feel it completely razes to the ground the past decade of our development and progress.

we've come so far and now they're reversing evolution to step into this shit-pile all over again.

and i won't even get started on the fashion. oh god...

case in point:

i think it was last year's awards night for local tv, and they got this korean guy to perform. so out he came, he did some rapping, some singing, some breakdancing, i don't know if he did any of that particularly well, but the crowd went wild.

what i thought was haven't we seen all of this shit, i don't know, maybe 10 fucking years ago? and in fact seen it so much that we got sick of it and moved on?

and then after that performance, i saw his name pop up on the tv and i recognised it (don't even ask me how), and realised the sad thing was that this fuck is approximately a thousand times more famous and popular than any of the tv stars at the awards night.

if this goes on, i predict that nu-metal will make a comeback within the next few years.

for love or money

i often hear people saying that if a guy doesn't have a good job (meaning a high-paying job), then no girl would want him and blah blah.

sometimes i hear guys saying that once they get rich and successful, girls would be throwing themselves at them and blah blah.

but isn't this one of the greatest problems that plaque rich people? they always have to wonder (and worry) if others, friends and lovers alike, are only there for their money.

so why do people want to bring this predicament upon themselves?

and why would anyone be interested in a girl that only wants their money? unless it's just for the sex then all i can say is happy fucking!

5

yesterday was the fifth (FIFTH!) year anniversary of my enlistment.

oftentimes i find myself thinking of those days, not that i miss it, but i think of all the unique feelings that came with the time.

these feelings i will never get to experience again.

sometimes i also find it hard to wrap my tiny brain around the fact that the days that i once felt like would last forever are now so long gone.

fuck the world

people often ask me why don't i go travel around the world since i'm so free?

traveling for the sake of traveling, i just think this whole deal is way overrated to the point of it being annoying.

people just fall for the romantic ideals that they see or think up in their minds about traveling without actually knowing what this is in reality.

they say they want to see the world. let's say you've finally managed to see the whole damn world, so what's next? are you going to put what you've 'seen' into use, or is it just gonna be something for you to tell people about?

yeah i've been here, i've been there, look at my pictures... what's the point? you've been everywhere only to end up where you began.

in recent times sites such as thoughtcatalog etc have been very popular, and one of the more common topics i see is about traveling.

i came across this article which pushed me over the edge and prompted me to write this.

"Excuse # 2: It’s way too dangerous to travel.
Another illusion that our society has molded our minds into."

fact: traveling alone IS dangerous, and i fucking hate it when these people who have safely completed their trips go around telling everyone that it is not dangerous. why not ask the lady who was raped by 3 men on her first night in india?

just because YOU have made it safely doesn't mean that it is safe. it's like a tsunami survivor telling people that it was nothing man, felt just like wading in a baby pool.

there's so much i can say about this traveling bullshit but i'm finally tired and i'm going to sleep now.

of candies and crushing

i believe it was earlier this year or late last year when i finally went against my natural disinclinement towards popular things, and perhaps for the first time in my life, i thought, hey, if so many people are doing it, it can't be that bad...

and so began my journey. stage 1, i breezed through it like it was some kinda retarded children's game. "wtf is this shit? it's so easy and yet everyone's addicted?" those would come to be my famous last words.

now at stage 300-something, i tend to get stuck at stages for weeks at a time, to the point where it's not even fun anymore. I JUST WANNA GET OVER THIS DAMN STAGE.

i guess it is a blessing that there are only 5 lives, otherwise i (and a great part of the population, i'm sure) would be stuck there crushing candies for goddamn hours at a go.

and of course there are masters of candy crushing, like dear mr dqb aka i-have-completed-all-available-levels... start a training school or some shit, i'm sure you could make a living out of this.

lol wut?

some job ads that i see really leave me scratching my head in confusion.

Advertising Sales Managers / Executives
Job Requirements:
- Minimum GCE ‘O / N’ Level
- Minimum 1 year sales experience, media sales experience an advantage
- Possess class 3 license with own transport a MUST

seriously now cars cost upwards of $100k, but the way they put it is as though it's only a bicycle.

truly asia

last weekend 5 of us drove up to KL to spend the weekend. it was quite a hellacious ride up, because my friend was driving at 140kmph on a 2 lane 'highway' and especially after watching one too many car crash videos.

anyway we got there in once piece at about 6am on saturday morning. in the car, i was talking to my friend and i told him i've never liked going to malaysia. i don't feel safe at all in that country.

the criminals there are brutal as fuck and it doesn't help that they like to target singaporeans. besides, the police there are also corrupt as fuck and it doesn't help that they too like to target singaporeans.

i've been to quite a number of countries but in none of them do i feel as sketchy as i do in malaysia.

so anyway 6am we couldn't check in to the hotel so we went to eat breakfast and walked around a little. we went to their shopping district and i believe it was around 9 by then, there were quite a number of people around although the shopping centres weren't open yet.

we were walking past the front of one of the malls when a guy on a motorbike rode up onto the pavement and up a little slope. he looked as though he was going to park his bike there, but then started to ride in circles up and down the slope.

why the fuck is this guy playing on the slope, i thought. as we were nearing, a security guard there waved him off, telling him to go away, so he rode down the slope towards the pavement.

there was a tourist couple on the pavement and the bike guy casually stretched out his arm as he was nearing the woman. i thought he wanted to push her away so he could pass through.

suddenly he reached up and ripped off her gold necklace, and before anyone even knew what was going on, he revved up his bike and dashed right across the big intersection to the opposite side. the man only managed to shout "OI!" but by then he was already far far away.

we were all like dafuq just happened? i looked at the security guard and he was just shaking his head. no one else seemed to have any reaction and i suppose there was nothing they could do either. we were right there and no one even saw the plate number. i remembered his face though, and honestly he just had a typical 'fucker' look.

after that incident we were all very cautious and wary of our surroundings, mainly because i was the only one with a bag and all our passports were in it. i felt a strong sense of injustice too, that such a brazen attack could happen and no one could do anything to stop it.

we also had the impression that such incidents were the norm in malaysia and that their people and police didn't really care about such 'minor' cases. this reinforced my previous idea that malaysia is a fucked up place to be.

when i got home, i went to youtube and searched for 'snatch theft' and wow, most of the videos were from malaysia. however, it was rather comforting to see that a lot of the videos showed the theives being caught by the public and they were usually beaten up by big mobs. at least this shows that the malaysians don't like this shit happening too.



just listen to him crying like a baby at 1:00.