tonight, tonight

when barcelona won the champions league in 2006, they were probably my second favourite team, behind manchester united. fast attacking football lead by ronaldinho, who till this day is still the most exciting player i've seen.

messi was then an injury-prone, hot prospect for the future and ronaldinho looked set to stay as the world's best player for at least a few more years.

5 years later, messi holds the title of being the world's best player for the past 2 years. ronaldinho has long faded into obscurity. barcelona is regarded as the world's greatest team, but has now turned into the team which i despise the most.

barcelona's fast attacking football has evolved into a monster known as tiki-taka, aka the new anti-football. don't get me wrong, they are good as hell at what they do, but it bores and irritates the shit out of me (and their opponents).

holding 70% possession of the ball every match, it is common to see them passing the ball 1,000 times and end up at precisely the same spot they started off. once they've bored their opponents enough to make a mistake, they then spring the killer pass to messi to finish them off.

some people claim that what they're doing is THE beautiful game, the way that football should be played, that barcelona are gods and they can do whatever the hell they like. fuck these people.

they stifle their opponents to the point where there is nothing to watch, except to wait and wait for everyone to fall asleep and they'll hit the killer pass. if that's not bad enough, the team is now filled with absolute cunts, the scum of the earth.

busquets, pedro, mascherano, alves, valdez... behaving like utter cunts, diving, play-acting, it's just disgusting that a team with their amount of talent have to behave like that, and yet be regarded as the best in the world. just watch this video after the 2nd minute.

tonight it's the final of the champions league, barcelona vs manchester united. for the sake of the whole world, i hope they get destroyed so badly that all the dumb fucks who think they're the best will just give up and shut up.

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update:

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playlist for the moment

1. rebellion (lies) - arcade fire
2. 23 - jimmy eat world
3. alexithymia - anberlin
4. time's arrow - thursday
5. summer stars - via audio
6. shadows (neon lights remix) - warpaint
7. daisy - brand new
8. falling away with you - muse
9. laura laurent - bright eyes
10. famous last tears - a vacant affair

of course i would recommend it.

me?

i figured out some time ago that all the craziness i felt in the second half of last year was because i was confused by the passage of time.

some days i wondered wow, when is this ever going to end? other times i wished the moment would never end.

some days felt like weeks, and others passed like i haven't woken up from a deep sleep.

and then all the shitty days that felt like they would last forever, and the wonderful days i hoped would last forever, they all just went away and ceased to exist.

they were all gone and i was the only thing left behind.

regardless of what it felt like or what i wanted it to be, the clock was still ticking away at its same old pace, and i just couldn't reconcile this in my head.

it may sound silly now but it certainly didn't feel that way.

for a moment

during laneway in january, it was late in the night, towards the end of the event and someone was blowing bubbles from the back of the crowd.

god knows how many bubbles they blew, but a small number found themselves carried by the wind to the stage. under the stage lights, they were a pretty sight, but their moment of glory came not then, but when they finally burst.

if it was at the right moment when it was caught by the stage lights, if it burst at that instant, the little pop turned the bubble into a billion tiny droplets that formed a beautiful, shimmering mist.

no love lost

love, it's just a strong and powerful word, but in the end it is just one word. love, there are no subtitles and disclaimers to clarify its meaning, to remind others of all the madness and confusion that usually accompanies the idea of love.

i love you (but i'm not really sure).
i love you (until i meet someone better).
i love you (a lot).
i love you (if that's what you want).
i love you (do you love me back?).

see there're so many different ways to love, and only one word to express it. i think it's a dangerous word and its use should be strictly limited.

really?

anxiety is the killer, i once said. it was strange to note that this past exams i felt almost zero anxiety. i was already preparing myself for the inevitable bad dreams since the beginning of the year, but they never came.

i thought it was still too early for me to feel anything, but even down to the last month and final days, there was nothing. sure, i dreamt of ghosts and running away from the police and bad guys etc but nothing that portrayed my anxiety.

it's not as though i have been really well-prepared for this exams, so i figured it must be because i've spent too long waiting for it to the point where i didn't really give a fuggg anymore.

on the edge of the water

4 papers in 3 days, and then it was all over.

the problem with things like this is that we always expect there to be some kinda BOOMZ explosion of happiness or joy or something there to greet us at the end.

in reality it's just life back to normal, and normal's hardly an explosion.

maybe it's just me.

X

so the elections have ended. back when i was in ns i did a little bit of work in choosing suitable locations to hold the polling stations. inane stuff, but little did i know that this election, my first, would be such a big thing.

for one, i never knew singaporeans to be interested in politics, which still holds true now, because posting a bunch of crap on fb and attending rallies every 5 years doesn't really mean anything.

so anyway i saw that a lot of people were saying FUGGG the PAP they SUXXX etc which lead me to believe that they don't know shit, because obviously the PAP has been doing rather well or else we wouldn't be where we are now.

besides, the other parties aren't exactly top quality at this point, which further proves that these people don't know shit. if the PAP goes down, who the hell is gonna take over?

all that being said, i don't really care who they vote for, as long as they have a good reason behind it (no, PAP SUXXX is not a good reason).

as for me, i think that what the PAP is doing now was the right thing to do maybe 20 years ago. its power mongering tactics are not sustainable in the long run. when the day finally comes where they fall out of favour with the entire nation, there has so be people who are good enough to step up and take over.

controlling all the power leaves little developmental opportunities for the alternative parties and if they have to step up, they won't be good enough, just as they are now.

strange happenings

i was listening to this video just a minute ago and when he started singing i suddenly felt like crying. tears actually welled up in my eyes WTF?

very strange because i was just reading fb365 and not doing anything that might affect my emotions. and i've never really given too much of a fuck to this song either.

WTF?