maybe some of you might already know this: i don't know how to smile on demand. i've tried but i always end up looking freaky and so i refrain from it.
but when i'm at work i've been smiling at a lot of random people (and probably freaking a few of them out). i smile at people in the lifts, corridors, canteen, on the road, sometimes when i'm in uniform i even smile at aunties at the market.
i don't even know why i do it, but it seems like the only logical thing to do. waving at people just seems too strange, doesn't it?
i still think i look freaky when i smile, but i figured that it's not so bad since i can't see myself. too bad for everyone else.
today i attended a service excellence workshop, which was basically us playing team building games etc, not quite sure how that's related to service excellence (although the speaker probably explained it somewhere).
anyway we were doing this 'circle of trust' thing, which i'm sure you'd have seen/been in before. the team forms a small circle with 1 guy in the middle and they're supposed to push him to stop him from falling.
it came to my turn and i got bored, so i encouraged them to push harder and widen the circle because everyone before me had like a 20cm circle.
and so i completely entrusted my personal well-being into the hands of these strangers, and it felt quite enjoyable falling this way and that. i guess i had too much fun because i ended up falling to the ground.
apparently this guy didn't push me because his hand got hurt, so i fell onto him and we both ended up on the ground. yea, faith is a terrible thing.
"now all these tastes improve through the view that comes with you like they handed me my life, for the first time it felt right thank you for making me see there's a life in me, it was dying to get out"
my mother needed to renew her handphone line so she's been asking me what phone i want to get, since i'm the one with the oldest phone in my whole family.
i told her i didn't want any, because the phones around now really piss me off, with their huge size and touch screens and innumerable applications.
i just want a nice slim flip phone with a decent camera and nothing else. no music no touch screens no nonsense. but too bad all the companies are going back to the 80's where phones were all brick-sized, except that now they have a mini computer built in too.
so yesterday she went ahead and got me a sony ericsson phone anyway, and today i tried using it. all the applications pissed me off so much that i tried deleting them, along with all of the other assorted nonsense that came in the phone, but too bad it wouldn't allow me to.
messaging is difficult because of the tiny keys and retarded interface. i installed the software and tried to upload some music but got pissed with that as well. everything about it made me feel so irritated, although fortunately it's not big otherwise i wouldn't even bother using it.
i'm gonna try it for a week, and if i'm still pissed i will revert to my old old nokia. obviously i could have simply stuck with the nokia and been a whole lot less pissed off, but what fun is life without some self-inflicted misery?
i've noticed that people like to ask me what i do at work. some people like to talk about work, but i don't really like to. it's as though 5 days of 9 and a half hours is not enough. i guess they're just curious.
even though i have a bike, i don't ride around all the time. somedays i just feel like relaxing and taking the bus because riding in heavy traffic can be so damn stressful.
other times it's cos the weather is too hot and i don't wanna sweat, or at times when i don't wish to die before i get to my destination.
such as when i'm about to go meet a hot chick and it would be a waste to die.
on thursday night i decided to turn on my old zen micro for a listen, after it has been lying inactive for close to 2 years. from then till now i have been using a $10 zen stone, which is great except for its shitty sound quality.
i listened to it and wow, the sound was really great, much better than anything i had in the past 2 years. better than my laptop, better than any damn ipood, it was great. and of course i was also amazed that it still worked.
then about 10 mins in, i was reminded as to why i had stopped using it in the first place. the damn thing died. it was really dying on me back then, crashing all the time, not to mention that the battery life was less than 3 hours when it did work.
so i restarted it and prayed that it'll reboot cos sometimes it wouldn't and it'll make me so damn irritated. but it did! so i spent the rest of the night listening to my old playlists and thinking of the days when these songs were played.
i've been living in this building for almost 12 years now, but i've never talked to any of my neighbours in the lift, except for those that i already know and don't have a choice.
why? because if i've never spoken to them, there would just be silence in the lift. once i start talking to them, it would become awkward silence.
it's like once you've said something, you're expected to talk every time they're in the lift with you. not my kinda thing.
